*Yo * Hermano *

Today it feels weird..
My brother told me that he miss me so much..
And he told me that I will have a sister in law for my 18th birthday..
I cant imagine him having a family yet..
I told him to have fun first..
Enjoy life..
If I tell my mum what i just said to him, I think she will think I'm crazy..
But you know what, I love my brother alot..
I dont him to take the responsibility that he cant carry yet..
It makes me suffer more to look at him suffering..
I think that he better carry his own mistakes around and not others.
He is smart and caring and crazy and fun..
He knows what he is doing..
And I might know how he feels when he is doing something..
I love him but i have never tell him before..
I wish that one day I have the guts to say 'I LOVE YOU' to my own family.
I have never ever said that 3 words to my family member..
Back to my brother..
He is the rawkers brother that I ever wish for..
I want him to have the life that he wants..
When I was a young girl, all I want to be was my brother..
Just be like him..
Run away whenever people try to make us feel so small..
What i want the most is to run away from my family..
Heii you know what..
Sometimes not everyone can just run away..
And that person is me..
But I am lucky where I am..
I dont need to deal with all my family member..
But poor brother..
:P
I think the best for him is just be himself and dont care what people say..
But sometimes I just feel like killing him..
Cause he act like he doesnt care..


To Be Continued....